醫生的記憶 |
如果有人對我說,你是醫生,你的記性,一定很好。我每次都有啞子吃黃蓮的感覺,甚至有點懊惱。不錯,這人總算能體會醫生要記住很多資料,但是,我不是一個好記性的人,不然,我不會讀得那麼辛苦,而我的回報還是那麼少。
記性,是很多醫學生第一個要克服的難題。而且,醫科的知識,只有下限,沒有上限。在這種情況下,人類的潛力能發揮到極限。因此,在當時的醫學生中,我就有幸看到不少高人,厚厚的一本解剖書,居然有人能背得朗朗上口。醫學生的臨床考試,有人在考試時所表露的知識淵博,令教授們以為在考一位專科醫生。有人更厲害,臨急抱佛腳,居然能考試過關,短短幾天的讀書成果,成績還算不賴;取勝之道,是他們記憶的速度。
如果有一種東西,我們的腦袋是最容易放棄的,你猜是甚麼?問得那麼明顯,當然是記性。我們的腦袋退化,會先退掉記憶庫的資料。無論是老人癡呆、中風、一氧化碳中毒...
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總之,一旦有甚麼破壞,我們先丟掉記憶。有人將我們的記憶比喻成硬碟,但我看來更像
RAM,隨機存取記憶體;電源一斷,記憶蕩然無存。
但是,醫生的思考和臨床分析,一定要有相當數量記憶了的資料,才能進行。但我們的記憶,卻無奈是如此單薄和脆弱。
我有一個噩夢,反覆出現過,凶惡而狠毒,像一個詛咒,我還記得醒來時那種窘迫;那就是,我的記憶在一剎那全沒了,一切,都要重新學過。(記憶‧四之二)
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I remember...
With you right by my side
The fun we had enjoy
For you to arrive
We never forget
each other
Never saw you sad
The sharing was so grand
Not many gifts were given
The joy of only two
Gave us so much happiness
Brought us closer too
For me you always my buddy
I still can feel your voice
Smiling with so much love
This touch of joy expands
For heaven has
an Angel
Who lives within my heart
Although you are not with me now
Our spirits never part
And yes I shall remember
The treasures that you gave
Your heart and gentle spirit
Are memories I save
Remembrance of the beauty
That always shall remain
Thoughts of love and happiness
The heart full of sweet
Dreams of life
were shattered
But still I
feel you near
Within the joy
of peaceful
Our precious
memories are here.
Music
Of Background: Memory (鋼琴提琴的三重奏)
21 April, 2005 |